Today's Thought

Today’s Thought are mental notes, ideas, excerpts and a practice of creative writing. It is a reflection on the day before or the future ahead. Wrote in the morning after in chronological order from the most recent to the beginning of the blog which began January 1, 2022 - May 8, 2022 below over black coffee. I hope you take the scroll of the way I look or perceive this life we live. This has always been the way I’ve chosen to look at life from since I can remember helping me overcome the obstacles of relationships, addiction, and this crazy thing called life. I have always refused to self sabotaging myself with the thoughts of negativity even if I have been very realistic. All it takes is a moment to focus on the bigger picture and to keep moving forward. That is always the process of progress. Sincerely Me your friend aka Jeffery Page

5.8.2022 - “See them running”

If you don't see them coming you'll usually see them running. . 20/20 hindsight. . Note to self. Know their history so you don't become history. . Wolves in sheep's clothing are far more dangerous than just a wolf.

False prophets in ways are so dangerous as the prey on the faith of others. May you all find a great group of individuals in life, sincerely me aka your friend Jeffery

5.7.2022 - Prototypes to Perfection

It's usually the history of others that continues to haunt us in the present. Even if it is not us it’s still us. Hatfield’s and McCoy’s I suppose. We are outsiders. Aliens. Individuals all prototypes to perfection. Yet our creator fails constantly as we all are miswired. Are we not? Yet we are all in Its’ likeness. Therefore our creator is also so flawed. If not we’d all truly be equal. So stay gold. Be original as some machines are made to replicate. Be strong as some machines are made to destroy. Help to repair as all machines are needed in some ways. If not then why would we create them in the first place? So we must all have a purpose to be presently working. It occupy’s the mind that is always in a world under repair.

Some will always pretend to have accomplished something they never faced. May you all really check yourself to honestly move forward or those spirits will get you. Sincerely Me aka Your friend Jeffery

5.6.2022 - That Triggers.

I'm a straight shooter. Triggering someone seems to sound like something old Roy Rogers would do. That's some real horse shit. Although some of you need to know there were a lot more triggers than you knew of... Happy trails to all your trailblazers. Until we meet again.

My grandmother knew Roy and Dale. I hung out in the salon and the bowling alley like I was a rebel. They just bowled and gossiped. I drank 7up and grenadine. The whole time it was called a Roy Rogers. . . . This is all true and explained in full detail in future stories of my life and other stories of the absurd. Enjoy The Life you were given and live it presently..

I don’t care what anyone says. We all want our own way to Happy Trails. It won’t always be easy but when it is you better enjoy it. Sincerely me aka your friend Jeffery.

5.5.2022 - “Cinco de Mayo”

I look presently forward to being present. I am thankful for the arts and friends I posses. Everyday is Halloween. Have a great day enjoy the tricks and treats of life. As I truly am. Sincerely Me aka your friend Jeffery

5.4.2022 - May the Force be with you.

I have to say I am a fan of star wars. Either way I believe the force is with us. PMA philosophy is so apparent within YODA. The balance of life. Being present. That’s what I learned from Star Wars. So May the 4th be with you… Sincerely Me your friend Jeffery

5.3.2022 - “I’d Warn”

I'd warn them but they'll find out eventually. It's not like they'd believe me. It would just be what always has been.

Most will never learn. So teach by example. Sincerely Me aka your friend Jeffery

5.2.2022 - “Biased opinion”

The most common thing to do is pick sides on a biased opinion. Some of the worst people I met in life will come at you straight laced with a smile and hug. When all my friends look like they came out of the Warriors or Colors yet I trust them with my life. Be careful choosing.

We all can have biased opinions especially when we are trying to only look out for ourselves. May you all see those for who they truly are in this game of life. Sincerely Me aka Jeffery

5.1.2022 - “Greener”

If you keep moving where the grass is greener. Just remember you are the one responsible for not taking care of your own lawn that you left in the first place...

I hope you all learn to tend to your gardens before you become pushing up daisies in your own garden. Sincerely Me aka your friend Jeffery

4.31.2022 - “Real Victims.”

Trust no bitches. Was a term originally said by a wife or a mother to their son or husband referring to unsavory women that time in which was a common term for female dogs. It was later inked on a forearm of the only innocent man in Shawshank Penitentiary. #JefferyPageBS

So many people play victim that the real victims go unnoticed.

May you all not be a victim to someone taking advantage of others. Sincerely Me aka your friend Jeffery

4.30.2022 - “ acting and being.”

There is a huge difference between acting like a good person and being a good person. . I'm sure now days we all know a person acting. . Now go break a leg. Obviously acting terminology for good luck. On with the show. . Today you'll be playing the role of a humanitarian.

4.29.2022 - “Always Different”

Things will always be different. Just be present. Today's peptalk is always the same. I only have two addictions now one is art. In all forms. Tattooing. Painting. Drawing. Pretty much every medium. The other is caffeine. May I be blessed with eyes hands and mind to create.

May you all live a healthy life. Sincerely Me aka your friend Jeffery

4.28.2022 - “Fleeting Moments”

Fleeting moments and future predictions are a waste of time. All I know is we are irrational when we discover time and adolescence is lost. Hence why ignorance is bliss and I am just a fool who knows nothing.

May you all let go of the past and live presently today. Sincerely Me aka your Friend Jeffery

4.27.2022 - “Just IT”

Some people can fake it. Some people make it. In the end some people take it. . Some people are just it. . No excuses. It happens. . The question is are you it?

I hope you all find it. Sincerely Me aka your Friend Jeffery

4.26.2022 - “Stunted your growth”

Having that moment realizing that one problem that's stunted your growth will always be beneficial and why we always have to self reflect from time to time.

Knowing your type can help you from falling for your type. I finally figured it all out. I used to think they were different.

Finding what you really want in life is as simple as looking inward to grow outward.

Sincerely Me aka Your Friend Jeffery Page

4.25.2022 - “ Death and Life”

Something from yesterday's coffee. Death and Life.Some people would say it's life and death.I guess it depends on perspective.It's all perspective.The way we see our self.The way we see others.I guess the way we see each other.I guess the way we see accidents or robberies.In the end it all the same. Enjoy it all.Death or life. It is what you perceive it to be.

Keep an open perspective to living.

Sincerely Me aka your friend Jeffery Page

4.24.2022- “ They were burned for sure”

One of my favorite things to do back in school was to make book covers to protect the school textbooks. It allowed me to draw on my books. I also probably should mention that most of my books in all grades may or may not have had illustrations in them. They were burned for sure.

I hope you all enjoy your Sunday.

Sincerely Me aka your friend Jeffery Page

4.23.2022 - “What Do You Prefer?”

The amount of coffee and tea I consume is one of the reasons I love imports. There is something delightful about both. . What Do you all prefer to drink in the morning?

I like my coffee black. May your day start off great. Sincerely Me aka your friend Jeffery Page

4.22.2022 - “I Met a witch.”

I met witch. She planned it all along. Her eyes caught me while her potion got me. Carry me to the river. Take me to the swamp. She is a witch. A swamp witch and I drank her potion to her spell I'm bound. It was a love potion. A great potion. I felt the heart as it began to pound.

I still truly believe that if we only truly invested in the true best interest of the earth, animals, and children that all of our problems would be fixed by default. . It takes a village not an army.

Sincerely Me aka your Friend Jeffery Page

4.21.2022 - “Used as ammunition.”

The knowledge of the past used as ammunition. What was promises of a future led to our extinction. If it was all for love my heart was given. The hardest part is to be left for dead yet still feel the need for living.

Sincerely Me aka Your Friend Jeffery Page

4.20.2022 - “Surrounded by Smiles”

So many moments of mine are lost with the fact I could never get the grease as a I may never be the squeaky wheel so to speak. Even in the lowest times I have the smile portraying the high times. I am lonely and no one wants a victim of this upbringing. I wander the earth like a zombie looking for something to feed this hunger as I just want to be loved. Like the monster of Frankenstein I am a creation to be destroyed by being unloved as I never was taught the meaning to love myself even if it is my hight times. I surround myself with mirrors so I can feel surrounded by smiles. It is the lonely heart that is loved the most when it stops beating.

Always love yourself to love others. Sincerely Me aka your friend Jeffery Page

4.19.2022 - “Our Mind Dictates our Reality”

To be a fanatic is to want a moment of escapism. I can always relate to those who daydream. . I love to be in a land of imagination created by the one in which I live in. Life is always beautiful even at it's darkest. Since truly it's our mind that dictates our reality.

May you all make the reality you want.

Sincerely Me aka Your Friend Jeffery Page.

4.18.2022 - “Those who lost”

I miss those who lost the battles. . Although I will never forget their beauty. . Small circles getting smaller. . Life

May you all continue fighting those battles. Sincerely Me aka Your Friend Jeffery Page

4.17.2022 - “Fought it.”

It's amazing we can be so lonely in a world full of human beings and other life that are living. . . . I will always think of those friends who could not find happiness. . . Sometimes living in Los Angeles you feel as the true war is mental illness. . I know I have fought it.

4.16.2022 - “Third Serious“

I believe in a juggle of life. I am a third serious. I am a third mad genius. I am a third not serious. Which pretty much truly means I laugh a lot. Especially now at myself. Laughing at others can be putting yourself in front of a firing squad. Why so serious...??? Positive af

.Continue thinking positive and just do it.

Sincerely Me aka Your Friend Jeffery Page

4.15.2022 - “ Future at one point “

I promise you all I can tell you at least one thing about your future that I learned from ancient civilizations just recently. It has allowed me unequivocally say I can see all of our somewhat near future at one point. Although not all of you could handle the truth. Just Ask Me.

Trust me it’s the truth. Everyone . I promise.

May you all have a great day. Sincerely Me aka Your Friend Jeffery Page

4.14.2022 - “My Love is Art”

My love is Art. It let's me do what I want. It doesn't judge me. It is always there. It's never let me down. Even if I'm not with mine it's the one thing that is all around. That is the true beauty of art. It is everywhere.

I hope you all see the beauty in everything as I do. Even the darkness…

Sincerely Me aka your friend Jeffery

4.13.2022 - Say No”

Love is the worst addiction of all. It leads you to paradise to then lead you to hell. Even in a perfect relationship someone dies. In a failed relationship someone leaves. I am a junkie who needs to say NO.

We will all find love when we can love our self.

Sincerely Me aka Your Friend Jeffery

4.12.2022 - “our Voice”

We are supposed to use our voice. Yet when no one is listening does even matter?

May you all be heard and only need to scream with reason.

Sincerely ME aka Your Friend Jeffery

4.11.2022 - “ say yes“

So many reasons to say yes. Even to some of the things you should say no to. That's just my philosophy.

Warning. I can not claim responsibility for ignorance. Use caution when saying yes.

Sincerely Me aka your friend Jeffery

4.10.2022 - “ To Survive“

I find some people so amazing on their own personal dedication and endless pursuit to positivity. Especially when I know I'm doing it just to survive.

I hope you are all enjoying another day on this quarter.

Sincerely Me aka Your Friend Jeffery Page

4.9.2022 - “My Fellow Junkies”

Waiting for my coffee feeling like a fiend waiting to spike that dark substance for a nice warm sensation I call life...

We are all addicts acting as if we are not addicts.

Have a great day my fellow junkies.

Sincerely Me aka Your Friend Jeffery Page

4.8.2022 - “ Ricky Bobby”

I think people should just dress up like a nascar now. Just put all your sponsors on you like stickers on a race car. I just picture Zoolander. Dance little monkey dance with Ricky Bobby wanting to thank Pepsi cola and coca cola. Corporate control clones should be our species.

If you’re not first you’re are last. Keep Keepin’ on you all…

Sincerely With Love your Friend Me aka Jeffery Page

4.7.2022 - “Eyeballing“

I was eyeballing this mother fucker from across the room that I walked up to him and was like you look great mother fucker. I couldn't help but laugh at my reflection right afterwards.

Sometimes you need to believe it. even if it’s just you. Just laugh. I promise it makes it better.

Sincerely Me aka Your Friend Jeffery Page

4.6.2022- “Numbers especially”

Sometimes I spell things wrong. Get things backwards. Numbers especially. Very rarely does it work out in my favor

May your days always be in order and you get your numbers right.

Sincerely Me aka Your Friend Jeffery Page

4.5.2022 - “ Some Close Calls.”

I don't know about all of you. I've had some close calls. A few with some of you. I love mornings the older I get. It is a beginning of another day on the same quarter. Every morning I feel more strength in a different way. Cheers to all of you friends, family and followers.

Sincerely Me aka Your Friend Jeffery Page

4.4.2022 - “It’s Have”

I would of loved for it to be true. That was so naive of me. I guess I am better for seeing that.

Always be honest with your failures. It’s the only way to grow.

Sincerely Me aka Your Friend Jeffery Page

4.3.2022 - “The Irony”

The irony is in the messages that are overlooked and forgotten while the mourners say they cared.

Remember to tell those you love. Well…. That you love them. Sincerely Me aka your friend Jeffery Page

4.2.2022 - “Spending Time “

Dropping metaphors and analogies is a past time of how I connect the dots. I find it easier to convey to others in these ways of explaining my mental thoughts. Some things may pass over head while some remain below. Yet, those who rise above understand the method of how to think rich and grow. If you think for a second yet let that thought go. It is the difference between those who start and never finish staying on course even if goes against the flow. It doesn't matter how you read it there are layers within these lines. Explaining being an individual and successful is all just a frame of mind. Explore every option yet be wise on spending time. I waste it not people that is my only crime.

May all of you spend your time wisely and stay focused to your dreams… Sincerely Me aka your friend Jeffery Page

3.31.2022 - “Amongst Giants”

We all walk amongst giants I suppose. At this point we all should have at least crossed paths with someone in our life that can be considered iconic in some way. Whether or not we care is the difference. I guess in some ways I just think meeting people is interesting. I am glad I got out with Rockne for Pat Pat’s 4th Birthday. It was so much more appreciated. I I saw Steve and Susan and met some new faces. Seeing lars, Joe at the constellation room in Santa Ana was a good night out. Now it’s mid day. Almost lunch time then I am off to see the ocean and meet someone over lunch. Who is the question? I don’t necessarily know who. Yet do we ever? At this point it’s all just entertainment. I just enjoy lunch conversations. I meet many people for lunch. Yet, Many people are always showing a side. It is weird to realize we are just giants. Someone portraying a facade of something bigger. Then again from what I have seen most are handicapping themselves by making themselves smaller. Take a chance to grow into yourself and in order to do so we must feed our minds and bodies.

May you all have a great day in the upmost best of your abilities avoiding the chaos of being anything than bigger than even the smallest person.

Sincerely Me aka Your Friend Jeffery Page

3.30.2022 - “When you have so much”

When you have so much to give, then you should give it. Do we all hoard and enjoy all this excess? It is all George Carlin skits. I need a bigger place for more stuff. It’s all about my stuff. In some ways yes. The compulsion to create has left me with tons of stuff. Sometimes these things make me feel comfortable. The art. The books. The stimulation of audio and visual delights. The only thing I am working on hoarding these days is love. To fill the only void in my life. It is all we really ever truly want and need. It is the only feeling we all have problems with. With it comes with it a huge weight of navigating through the irrational world in which we forget how to show it in real life. We all want to be loved. That is why some people have animals. Having relationships when we are truly loved makes it a better life in general.

May you all find the love and life you are looking for . Sincerely Me aka Your Friend Jeffery Page

3.29.2022 - “Remembering those cuddles are priceless”

Today felt like a reminder of those precious animals were still in my memories. I know the pain of loss. This will always be the worst. Remembering all the cuddles are priceless. I loved my creatures. They were the most majestic moments of my life before I was alone. It is interesting looking forward. Then again isn’t it always interesting. Life is the most unpredictable thing. We all have ideas. Only some of follow through. I guess it is the follow through. I really didn’t want anything more than cuddles.

I hope you all have cuddles today or at least hugs. We all deserve them from time time to time. Sincere Me aka your friend Jeffery Page

3.28.2022- “Where we are”

I don’t know where we are going although I know where we are. It just seems to be the ever going cycle of us. We all want what we want. I know what I want. I just wish I knew the way to keep it. I guess today is a new day. We are where we are. Floating in this vast universe known as life.

I hope you can all appreciate the place you are at right now. As every moment alive is beautiful. Sincerely Me aka Your Friend Jeffery Page

3.27.2022 - “Sunday Funday”

I don’t necessarily have Sunday Fundays anymore. I used to. I think that was when I dated women. I had 2 that I truly loved. Both for different reasons and at different times. Yet one threatened to kill me in my sleep and the other blamed me for years of past trauma caused by her life’s decisions. I could never say I didn’t love them both. Although thanks to their moments in my life I’ve realized what it is that makes me date women I shouldn’t. It just took twenty years to realize it. So Sunday is now just another day I stay in my world. I am happier without the heartache of loving someone either too soon or someone too late. Maybe someday I’ll find someone who is into Sunday Fundays then again everyday is fun.

3.26.2022 - “Until Future Updates”

I have been busy in my world working on these ideas, projects and creations. Like a mad scientist it is is hard for me to contain my excitement. Yet somethings we have to keep secret. Until future updates I guess this is the most I can share. So I guess all I can report is that I am alive and well. Lot’s of things to create so I must keep this brief.

May you all find the energy to keep on the path of your journey regardless of the obstacles you encounter. Sincerely Me aka Your Friend Jeffery Page

3.25.2022 - “Finding ways”

Human beings have a great persistence to overcome obstacles. I honestly think it is a great thing about our species. We can almost be counted out of the picture yet still survive. I guess we are all finding ways to be better. I know I am. I see the things I need to do. I know how to do them. Anything else is and has always been sink or swim. Either way we all find our ways.

May you all find your ways to get where you need to be. Sincerely Me aka Your Friend Jeffery Page

3.24.2022 - “It’s not the best thing:

I can always give the advice that is needed. It’s not the best thing to do. I promise you it just causes problems on some level. I am only playing in my world of imagination.

I hope you all can find your peace that is needed. Sincerely Me aka Your Friend Jeffery Page

3.23.2022 - “The brushes are wearing thin.”

I love the idea of painting constantly and writing for a living even more so than now. It is the only time I can escape this world that seems horrendous. Not even the competition that seems to exist in art can stimulate me as much as the true exhausted ideas I seem to have. It to only occupy’s my over active mind as I try to decipher others and the fear of earthquakes, human beings, and what will happen when the poles switch. I like to just think because I daydream as I paint. Still thinking about Tesla and his ideas. The concept of harnessing cosmic energy which has to be some kind of radiation using technology to convert into energy. 3,6,9 seems to be a quartz, diamond, time crystal triangle? It has to be based on his fascinations and the technology at the time to have that bold of a statement for free energy. If we look past Solar Energy from space. What is it that we have left? Cosmic Radiation Nighttime or daytime? I don’t know the answer. Although i can imagine possibilities. It has to be based on harnessing maybe even sound waves? Can we create energy off of sound? Does it have something to do with the coil that bares his name? I can only imagine. Which is what I do while I paint, draw and write. I wander through the galaxy in my head. It has to be based on previous experiments. Are we not all able to be profiled? We know his stance on war and free energy. Both are supposed to be able to run off of the same principle. As my brushes run thin with paint. I will continue thinking about the principle of 3,6,9. What are the energy vortex lines of the world? Do they work with this principle? Would it be a concept to look into? Did someone already do it? I don’t know. I’m just painting and exploring the mind and the universe. As I am a daydreamer and a person who is out there. I believe the answer is very simple in someways when you can rule out what can’t generate energy and what can. Then how do we harness it? It was made by Tesla and was pre 60’s technology. I need a super computer. Something like Tony Stark could do. Either way the break is almost over as it is now 3:10am. I will sign off and go back to painting until the brushes are wearing thin.

Remember to stay out there and always question everything. Sincerely Me your friend Jeffery Page

3.22.2022 - “Sleeping through a daydream”

Another day of reminders. Haunted by ghosts and past loved ones. Today moved slow. It was like sleeping through a daydream. In and out of naps. Just as my heart seems to mend a reminder of what it is to find the light disappears into the fog. Some wrecks we lose others in the crashing waves. The nightmares occur when some of them reach from beyond the graves just to remind you.

May you all sincerely never feel the grey that exist’s in this world as none of it is truly white or black. Sincerely Me your friend Jeffery Page

3.21.2022- “Focused on the idea”

Staying focused on the idea of 3,6,9 lately. In some ways I find it to be great. I don’t know what will come of it. Yet do we ever really know what will come of anything. If it was good enough for Tesla then it is good enough for me. I can not really blame him. I see the ideas of focusing. It’s all we can truly do. Pick something and keep blinders on. I love this concept. Unfortunately it something that makes you strange. Isolated. It is the whole idea. A bigger picture. I guess we all have that concept. Are we really any different?

May you all stay focused on the goals or ideas that you are passionate about. As we are all deserving of what we want. Sincerely Me aka your friend Jeffery Page

3.20.2022 - “ Wondering why?”

I woke up wondering why? It hasn’t been but an hour and I have had a reminder of my past from my phone. It is seems like a positive. Yet when it may be a past that no longer is relevant in present day is it positive. Depression amongst our future species will be all regulated by algorithms. The more we post our happiness the more we will be reminded when it doesn’t exist that way. Quite interesting to think how that will play out on our future psyche. It will be similar to that old saying. Opening old wounds to add a pinch of salt. I wonder why we are so fascinated by it and memories? My memories are all of heartache. Then again aren’t we all.

I hope you all continue to learn to love more while those you love are alive. Sincerely with love Me aka your friend Jeffery Page

3.19.2022 - “I feel the no reason but the compulsion”

I have no idea what I am doing. I am just living. Things I see are never better than a day living. I found out another lost friend I knew had taken her own life. It sucks to know the depression others feel. It’s the suicide that is the worst. I owe seeing life being short as it is working at the funeral home. Trying to tune it out negativity and our demons can be hard. Especially when you know that we are all connected and we feel other depressions and obstacles of life. Seeming overwhelming. She never saw herself as beautiful. Although her lips and eyes were amazing and in every way with a soul and heart that matched. In all honesty from the top of her head to the tips of her toes she was so beautiful. I can honestly say that without a doubt. Yet we all have our perspectives I suppose. Even being a make up artist she actually didn’t need make up. Her smile was infectious. Her laugh radiant. It’s funny how we all seem to be so far away in a connected world. I realized that truth all too well this past few years. I guess I am lucky. I feel no compulsion other than to create to occupy my heartbreaks and over acted mind. It beats destroying myself and others. Also trying not to focus on the negatives that surround us all. I have known way too many beautiful people inside and out that have taken their own life.

May you all find your inner peace to live. Sincerely Me aka your friend Jeffery Page

3.18.2022 - “ I am only behind since I’m living.”

I don’t know why but just like that I feel the need to connect. Not all personal but to just be done with the worries to frolic and explore. I spent the day exploring myself in meditation and a long conversation with an old friend. We had moments in time that we shared that were amazing yet left me since I guess I was too nice. I got an unneeded apology. Our conversation lasted for hours and it was just nice to hear some one on a level that saw me and new me before and after the past decade. It was nice to see our friendship still picked up where we left off. Which I have noticed over the past year I have slowly made my way back into reality out of my shell. Let’s face it I got the internet so I could start using this website that has been highly neglected. Needless to say it was a great conversation which made me see these qualities she said I have always had. Also agreeing the idea I have a magnetic personality. It was a full day of conversations. When she asked me how do I feel starting over. I didn’t really no how to say it at first but I seemed to sum it up as “I’m only behind since I’m living”. My life is far more interesting with the cast of characters to round out my Shakespearean life. It’s full of theater. Romance, Drama, Comedy, Tragedy and Adventure. It just could not all be written to protect some of the cast of characters. We laughed as the phone call ended with a moment spent well. I am glad I choose living.

Keel on living the dream by changing it how you seem fit. It’s your story. Don’t let others ruin it. Don’t blame others for the way you wrote it. Have a great day just realizing why we sometimes have to even rewrite it. Have a great evening on this late Friday night edition of “Today’s Thoughts” . Sincerely Me aka your friend Jeffery Page

3.17.2022 - “Lucky I Suppose”

Today is St. Patrick’s day. I guess it is supposed to be full of green beer. However, I really just want to count my blessings today at home. I know a lot of people who all feel unlucky. That I can say I can relate to. Yet really we are alive. That alone means we are lucky I suppose. I guess a lot of us just always get to realize what this pot of gold truly is while others are constantly running to find a pot of gold.

Good luck finding those to enjoy life with you on your adventures to your pot of gold. Sincerely Me aka Your Friend Jeffery Page

3.16.2022 - “The Fascination”

The fascination is that I have been there and never want to be there ever again. The dark side of life. The fascination is I miss them. It is the truth. Though that idea of sharing it all will wear you thin. I could not help though be compassionate for even Dave on the corner of 9th & Broadway Downtown Los Angeles. I’d spend time talking to him over the past decade as he was a homeless person I would spend time with from time to time. I’d be glad to invite him to a dinner after his wonderful kind act. Which will be in my book “First Call, Last Call”. A memoir of funeral home and bar stories. 20 Chapters of moments in time of my life.. It is the fascination of death why I would always choose life. It is hard for me to shut down. It is nice being able to occupy time in the worlds I create as the chaos that exists. I think that is why we live the way we do in California. It is the Wild Wild West. We look at things differently. We flaunt our riches as we are all miners and outlaws. Hustlin’ and movin’ or Cryin’ and Dyin’. Earthquakes, Drugs, Gangs, Wars, Serial Killers, Cultures, Droughts, Temperature spikes. It is this fascination why it’s hard to leave your goldmine to find a new one. Yet we all have our own private Idaho.

May you all be able to dust yourself off and not lose focus on where you want to be. Sincerely Me aka your friend Jeffery Page

Some of our biggest fears are really just a mirror.

3.15.2022 - “Tired of Running”

When you get tired of running you'll eventually see where you need to be to take the stand you need to for yourself. We are all where we need to be even if we don’t think we are.

Good luck finding your place. Sincerely Me aka your friend Jeffery Page

3.14.2022 - “Immortality”

Met up with another friend Chico today. I can not say that I don’t have great friends. We met up today so I could tattoo him with a momento for his friend that passed. It was this conversation when we began to talk about real life. Immortality and so on we all must realize that all life is temporary.

May all you truly live how you seem fit without affecting others negatively. Sincerely Me aka Your Friend Jeffery

3.13.2022 - “Looking Back”

It feels nice to be able to see my friend Rodney Wirtz perform with the Long Beach Symphony last night with Eckart Preu as the music Director. I has flashbacks to cartoons. It was a wonderful evening. Looking back it’s been a great friendship that I am always appreciative of. Hearing Rong-Huey Liu on Oboe was just one experience I have enjoyed from the hospitality of Rodney Wirtz. The program was Peer Gynt Suite No.1. Composed by Edvard Grieg. Concerto in D Major Oboe by Richard Strauss. ending with the Firebird Suite by Igor Stravinsky.

Regardless of the music it is all classical to someone. May you all have a soundtrack for the waves of life. Sincerely Me aka Your Friend Jeffery Page

3.12.2022- “The silence and familiar moments”

Lately I have noticed a bunch of awkward moments as I have went out. Not like to many places just a restaurant and the grocery store. However, I personally can’t help but the the silence and familiar moments. Seeing some of these people with a mask off they seem different yet the same. It’s like not seeing someone in a while and they got some type of facial alteration. It always makes me feel out of place as I must stand out a lot more than I think. Just remember to don’t worry be happy. Remember the rules. Smile. Smile. Smile.

May you all have a great day in surviving and pushing forward my friends. Sincerely Me aka Your Friend Jeffery Page

3.11.2022 - “Really though”

Talking to a few friends it’s been easy to say we’ve been zoning out working. Trying to get ahead in the chaotic world. Then I was like really though. Has it been any different? Since I can remember we’ve been fed some kind of propaganda in the United States. That is true.

Keep walking the fine line between not caring too much but just enough. Sincerely Me aka Your Friend Jeffery Page

3.10.2022 - “So much for being a saint”

Never doubting the ideas of anyone is why I see that anything is possible. It is this secret. The matter of belief. Seeing where we need to go is a group effort. It requires compassion that starts always with in. Regardless of age we all sometimes are forced to start over. I am far from ever thinking I know all. Even the most ignorant person knows something I don’t. It is life. We are all branded as different pieces on a board. Sometimes we know we have all been pawns. Although once I know I am being sacrificed I will usually revolt. In some way we are all pawns being sacrificed. So much for being a saint.

We all have words of wisdom that fall on deaf ears. May you all learn every way possible on why life is so amazing and learn to keep out the drama. Sincerely Me aka your friend Jeffery Page

3.9.2022 - “I can believe it”

Nothing surprises me when it comes to human nature. Doesn’t really matter what. I can believe it. Pure evil to sincere kindness. The human being is a very diverse complex creature capable of anything from creation to destruction. Enjoy it and Destroy it. I guess like a heart or a fragile ecosystem. We can be amazing creatures capable of anything.

May you all try to always be around those who actually are supportive. Sincerely Me aka your friend Jeffery Page

3.8.2022 - “ The little bit I have left”

I feel as if I can not have anymore vultures in my life as my carcass has nearly been picked clean. As for lovers I barely have anymore heart left to give. The little bit I have left is needed just to survive.

May you all learn quicker than I did. Sincerely Me aka your friend Jeffery Page

3.7.2022 - “Can we imagine?”

Would we be anywhere without team work? Some want to be leaders yet lack correct judgment. Some are followers without disagreement. Yet could we truly be anywhere without at least someone else? Can we imagine? All of us? A life without others. It seems we want it. Yet we wouldn’t be here without team work. Then again why build bridges? Maybe to learn more for further advancements in our species. Instead let’s destroy it. Can we imagine? just peace. That would be the greatest teamwork of all.

Good luck being on your team and expecting to be part of the team of humans. It’s hard to always participate as a team player I guess. Sincerely Me aka your friend Jeffery Page

3.6.2022 - “What are we?”

Barbaric. Selfish. Evil. What are we? A parasite. Hopeless, Heroic. Human? What are we?

Hopefully we are all humans trying to do the right thing for the right reasons. Good luck on your decisions. Sincerely Me aka your friend Jeffery Page

3.5.2022 - “The thoughts of victims”

So many people are made victims daily. Yet we all are victims of something while we all are beasts cut from the same cloth as well. It is a cycle of human nature. It is the paranoid thoughts of survival that feed our ever growing rise of victims. Yet the thoughts of victims are left with this game as they now will have paranoid thoughts of survival for life. Now the cycle repeats. We are all struggling with these thoughts of paranoia of being what we all are. Victims of other human beings.

All of us are victims of something. I just wish you all the chance to recover from your injuries physical and/or psychological before we create more victims. Sincerely Me aka your Friend Jeffery Page.

3.4.2022 - “For a moment I slept”

Last night was an off and on fight with insomnia. It’s because of conversations of war and death most likely. Not necessarily in a bad way. Just one of over active imagination. I have found the grim reaper to always be the most common form of inspiration all from the darkest of moments I have seen the light. I guess I have always just seen things for what they are. Life and Death. We all have these struggles. I feel that is what most of my art is. Struggles in human nature. An art within itself. For me. So much to do so little time. I feel that is what war truly is. Wasted time. I fail to realize why people want that stress in their life. Make art not war. I couldn’t agree much more. I guess for a moment my mind and my heart slept. Up again wondering if any of it will survive. Thankful for art to keep a mind occupied. Just for a moment I slept. It was also the nap i took yesterday.

May you all find peace for at least today. Sincerely Me aka your friend Jeffery Page

3.2.2022 - “Resetting for a second”

I have many thoughts that are reoccurring and some that seem new. Regardless most of them are just moments of day dreaming of the art I will not ever be able get to in my lifetime while I’m still just trying to keep up with myself. I truly feel there are never any days off yet I take every day off. Sometimes we all need time off. Yet, I feel when I have time off i am wasting time. Though I am glad I took the time resetting for a second. Some resetting takes longer than others. So much art to share so little time.

Good luck conquering that bucket list. I know I’m going to need it. Sincerely Me aka your Friend Jeffery Page

3.1.2022 - “ I know it means something”

The tokens and fragments of destruction must mean something. We have them displayed across the world in protected museums with some of our most cherished recollections of our past. Is it the pottery from Pompeii, concentration camps from hitler to even just the photos from the aftermath of Hiroshima we must remember? Then again maybe we should think of the innocent victims that suffer from this act of war. Isn’t that what all of our history is based off of? Fragments of a past history in cliff notes. I don’t know really. I just feel these fragments displayed and stories told must contain something more than just a display of art. I know it means something. Doesn’t it? I guess not. Maybe it’s just me that sees a violent past and what seems to be a future with new types of fragments.

I hope you all repair your fragments before we have to pick up our fragments of war.

Sincerely Me aka Your Friend Jeffery Page

2.28.2022 - “Pick a side”

It’s unfortunate we need to pick a side. Yet in the end we all have to. Living in archaic and primitively insane world is what I have truly seen in this world of mine since I’ve been born. Narcissistic human behavioral melt downs. The problems when you do not have a friends who can tell you that you are being crazy or questioning our thoughts. I know I must be crazy for all my creations in my mad mad world. However, I never hurt anyone unless you feel art is violent. I guess in someways it could be. The conflicts of wars. Are you right brain or left brain? Red or Blue? Heads or Tails? Black or White? Are we not all human? I pick the side of anything but war. Yet, I guess we all have been in wars since we’ve been born. I pick the side of Life I guess. That’s my side. Life. It’s too short…

I wish you all peace eventually in all the atrocities that exist from war.

Sincerely Me

aka

Your Friend

Jeffery Page

2.27.2022 - “Whittling wood”

I woke up this morning to watch Volodymyr Oleksandrovych Zelenskyy the leader of the Ukraine stand up with other Ukrainians against the invasion of Russia and Vladimir Putin. I then watched John Mulaney and his 5th time hosting SNL. I love to laugh and find it absurd to realize this is how I get through the life. Usually just laughing or creating. I feel that is it wasn’t for my active days creating regardless of the medium I can navigate this atrocious world that has always been shedding blood since I was born. I truly wish people could find a hobby that kept them from being hostile to others. Yet here we are with someone acting insane. Imagine that. I feel that is why I create. To occupy my insane mind from acting insane in reality. How I wish someone could give Putin some G.I. Joes to play with or he liked whittling wood. I mean seriously kicking or stacking rocks seems to be more productive. Either way the wars we fight daily should never be caused by another human being. As the amount of life lost will never be worth it.

I hope you all stand up to insane narcissists. If for anyone do it for at least YOURSELF. Sincerely Me aka your friend Jeffery Page

2.26.2022 - “The Battle of Nature”

Little overwhelming watching the news non stop. I caught myself this morning paying attention. I can currently only have faith in the process and focus ahead. Keep moving forward. Keep moving period. That is the way. Stay active . Stay Productive. Stay Ready. It’s life. We are all at war. That is all my country has ever taught me since I can remember. Your Great Grand Father is Crazy from the War. Your Grandfather is crazy from a war. Your uncle is crazy from the war. We have a war on drugs. We have a war on gangs. We have a war on democracy. We have a cold war. Desert storm. The war in Iraq. Korean, Vietnam to the war on terrorism. War on everything. We are all at war. Even if is sometimes just with ourself. We are animals. We are horrendous. We are ugly. We are War. That is what war is. Self destruction. The battle of nature.

I hope you all learn that fighting a war period will only lead to some negative lasting affects even to the winning side in the long run. That is the positivity of peace. No sides. Just a feeling of giving yourself a vacation from life which is what will always be full of asteroids, armies, disease, virus, nature, and sometimes just pure old dumb luck by crossing a street. May you all have good luck dodging bullets both literally and figuratively speaking. My Best Wishes to you all in finding the peace you deserve. Sincerely Me aka Your Friend Jeffery Page

2.25.2022 - “Some of our connection is a failure”

The art of war. The undeniable fact of fiction. The real reasons for any of it is you have at least 1 crazy person who undeniably doesn’t want to listen or 2 crazy people who want to get theirs. I don’t know why it’s always a belief that people think or want to understand why there is craziness? It is as constant as the waves. They will always crash. From the smallest one to the tsunami or rogue wave. We all have to realize some of our connection is a failure. Then throw in the crazy and you have a perfect storm. Not all can be explained. I wish there was not so much heartache and bloodshed yet I guess that is why we are still just so primitive.

May you all be able to hug someone tonight or an animal. Then again to the few that are alone may you all find ways to occupy time how you deem worthy. Sincerely Me aka Your Friend Jeffery Page

2.24.2022 - “The product of smiling”

I never think there is enough time. In the end we all should be smiling. Regardless of how bad things can get we all should see what the product of smiling can do. I don’t know why laughter and smiling has meant the most to me in my past as well as to my future. I guess we can always find laughter the key to happiness. I wish I was able to laugh longer.

May you all have a great day of smiling. Life is a wonderful thing. Sincerely Me aka your friend Jeffery Page

2.23.2022 - “Lead by example”

It’s hard trying to explain to those things they do not want to hear. Hence, Why I am trying to just lead by example and remember silence is golden. May you all learn to do the same. Sincerely Me aka your friend Jeffery Page

2.22.2022 - “Teammates”

I think it is great to have a team. Especially in this world in a I can do it mentality. The one thing I know is that I can do it. Although many hands make light work. I just truly wish I had a teammate  that wanted us to win not just be the MVP. Yet here I am with a keyboard, coffee and just some thoughts on how much I believe in teammates as I sit here by myself. It’s the fun and games I guess I truly miss. I guess we all don’t get picked up. I guess that is why I’ve been just being a better teammate to myself.

May you all find your winning team. Sincerely Me aka your friend Jeffery Page

Hopefully you all are better players at this game of picking teammates. I know I’m horrible at it on a franchise level. 

Today marks 2 months of my final change for me to be the best teammate to myself as I quit drinking at the height of the holidays season as I reflected and envisioned what I truly see for and about myself. Hopefully no more bad decisions. Although I can not help the accidents of life only the actions I choose. Regardless, I’m all in on me.

Below is what I used to say as I was always better in a relationship than not.

“Behind every great man there’s a great woman”.

Now I’m in one with myself.

Facts ?

The first printed citation I can find of “Behind every great man there's a great woman” is from the Texas newspaper The Port Arthur News, from February 1946. This was headed - "Meryll Frost” - 'Most courageous athlete of 1945'. As he received his trophy, the plucky quarterback unfolded the story of how he 'came back'.

Behind every successful man, there is a woman." - This is a French saying and comes from the phrase “Cherchez la Femme”, which literally means "seek the woman." This originated under the concept that a woman is what causes any crime that is committed. It first appeared in the work, "Les Mohicans de Paris" by Alexandre Dumas.

2.21.2022 - “ Playing or working? “

The passing of everyone before you means a well lived life. Then how was your life spent? Playing or working? What is the reason for either one? Life should be easy regardless. Live life like a vacation. Work on living the dream because livin’ the dream is living free. I wish everyone could live their passions. Sincerely Me aka your friend Jeffery Page

2.20.2022 - “To whom it may concern,” 

  To dwell in the past is a failure to move forward. If you truly want to make a difference wether for you or the ones you love you must just learn from it and keep moving. That is why I understand history. I have learned from it. I just hate the constant broken record of repeating it. However, this is the sign of the times. I am reliving a year of my childhood. It is a season of insanity as everyone is mesmerized by the piano neck tie. Hopefully, we will all open our eyes sooner than later. May we all start caring instead of acting as we do. Until next time. Sincerely Me aka your friend Jeffery Page

2.19.2022 - “Bodies avoiding colliding”

We are all just bodies avoiding colliding with one another in this vast universe. Avoiding the conflict in which is considered a catastrophe. A beautiful dance of positive, negativity, and various other forces like gravity. In some way we try to make sense of it all.

In all reality none of it makes sense. It only does because we say so. Sincerely Me aka Your Friend Jeffery Page

2.18.2022 - “Reflections of Wasted Time”

We all look back from time to time. I know yesterday I got hit with that moment of reflection after I received a letter brought by the United States Postal service. It was the letter to say I am officially single. Ironically that day was notarized on Feb. 14th. The day of love and I am officially divorced. I guess it is all the past. As even this moment is now gone.

I guess that is what time is. Just moments disappearing into a reflection of the way things used to be.

My time is one of just mistakes of repeating the past to hopefully make it to a better future by trial and error. I hope I don’t fail anymore as my time is worth too much to be wasted anymore.

I sincerely wish everyone the best in finding someone to waste time with. Sincerely Me aka Your Friend Jeffery Page

2.17.2022 - “Helping Yourself”

We all have obligations. Unfortunately some are only to ourselves. The true meaning of survival. Live like you are on the edge of the solar system. Looking back in. Help if you can but bet on yourself to make the most change. The change you make it will help you in the end.  Helping others truly comes from helping yourself first. If you don’t help that person survive you’ll be lucky if you save anyone else. Don’t give help when you can not help yourself.

Sincerely Me aka Your Friend Jeffery Page

2.16.2022 - “Enjoy Your Escapism”

I enjoy some of the times spent working later or taking naps. We all spend some time in a trance like state. I know I do.I hope you can to. I like spending time on my obsession of art. I hope you all enjoy your escapism. It is all beautiful.

Sincerely Me aka Your Friend Jeffery Page

2.15.2022 - “Stop Counting”

When you stop counting it doesn’t seem to matter anymore. My only view when it comes to watching things come and go in life. I used to count many things previous to this time like years, days, hours and even minutes. Now days it doesn’t even seem worth it to  keep that record. Life should only be counted by one measurement that being your own life. Other than than that it all comes and goes. That is why in the end you should always just count yourself first as nothing seems to matter.

The only other thing besides yourself you can count on is death. Spend your time counting wisely. Sincerely Me aka Your Friend Jeffery Page

2.14.2022 - “Love Me

In a world that is supposedly so full of Love. Why can we not seem to love one another better. I know how to love. Yet I feel so many just don’t love themselves.So on this day so focused on an over abundance of LOVE I hope you all have a chance to remind yourself the one you should love first. Which is yourself. Without that Love it’s hard to love anyone else. Sincerely with love Me aka your friend Jeffery Page

2.13.2022 - “Big Game”

Some of the best things in life just start with you. Whether it is exercising your mind or your body. The big game is Life. You should always work on both as you chase the dream of excellence. The only way you can be happy and chase the dragon of your dreams is by living life in the way you see it. Accept all mistakes in this pursuit as humiliation and failure is the only way you may learn to succeed in this fabulous game. In many ways it is these lessons that truly make us better.

Whether it is Super or not the big game is life. May you all bet on yourself. Good Luck.

Sincerely Me

aka Your Friend Jeffery Page

2.12.2022 - “ Face the day”

Some of the worst days are the ones you don’t feel like facing we are told. We all can have those days that laying in bed to avoid these tasks ahead of us seem easier for us. Although they will still just be there for us to face tomorrow. I guess that is why we should never put something off when we could easily do it today. The feeling to avoid the day will just add anxiety to what we will still need to do tomorrow. I guess that is why I love mornings it’s a reminder I am alive . Plus tomorrow is not promised and I should live today as if it is my last. Whether or not it is something I want to do or something I am obligated to do. It’s truly for the simple fact I am alive and living. Isn’t that what we should all want to do? I know I do. So regardless of how you feel. I hope you all seize this day like it’s your last doing what you need to do.

Sincerely Me aka your friend Jeffery Page

2.11.2022 - “Honest Friendship”

Being a friend is so much more than just fun and games. Sometimes someone gets hurt. The only time we can see that someone is really a friend is if those intentions as they may hurt our feelings comes out of a real intention to help us be better. Even if it is for our own personal gain sometimes that truth hurts. However, it’s the honesty of being a real friend that makes our bonds tight. To be honest sometimes that friend may just be yourself talking to yourself.

Good luck on being a friend even if it’s only to yourself.

Sincerely Me aka your friend Jeffery Page

2.10.2022 - “Finish the Journey”

Some mornings you realize some tasks are just harder than others. Just as I began the Today’s Thought I feel as if I finished Today’s Thought. Have I came full circle as someone already ran exhausted on something to write or is it a moment of relaxation. I can not say I don’t feel inspired. I just feel as if there is a moment of emptiness or a loss of words. Yet just as exercise it is necessary for me to write something as this practice is just for me. So is this thought sentimental or inspiring? Is it really a mental note? In someways it is holding myself accountable to a goal I set fourth ahead of me. Which truly is I guess the human desire to finish what we started. I guess that is all I can offer today as inspiration. Always complete the tasks you make and that alone will give you if anything a since of accomplishment. Even if it is only for you.
May you all continue the journey’s you begin and reach the destinations you set fourth to reach.

Sincerely Me aka Jeffery Page

2.9.2022 - “Quest for Knowledge”

Regardless of what we think in life chances are we are wrong. It seems most things we think we know is just an ever elusive quest of knowledge proven we do not know. Even if it’s the arts, science or our own self. We all don’t know how to tell anyone the path to take or even which one we should choose. Although the journey and quest for knowledge seems to be our over all common bond. We all truly just want to know or feel we know what that purpose in life is. When in reality that seems to be the question that is almost never answered. I think in reality our reality is to always just question. I guess that is why we will always be just students trying to pass a class in life.

May you all enjoy the process of learning and this ever going quest for the answers why.

Sincerely Me aka Your Friend Jeffery Page

2.8.2022 - “Root Down”

Root Down. Never get weeded out. Stay root down. Grounding yourself can keep you true. Don’t be afraid to blossom. Don’t be afraid to wilt. Don’t be afraid to be alone. Don’t be afraid to die. Stay root down.We are all unique flowers in this garden of Eden.May you learn to grow into the flower you want to be even if it’s a rose with thorns.

Sincerely Me aka Your Friend Jeffery Page

2.7.2022 - “Failure to see failures of the past”

We honestly could never deny our mistakes in life as the history is there. It is how we learn especially if we want to become better as we progress. Although if we fail to acknowledge that history of failures it will always comeback to haunt us in the end. I guess that is why I find history whether if it is just our own past, other people or other civilizations so important to learn from. It is this acknowledgement of admitting we are not perfect the only we can move forward being better for not only our civilization but also ourself in any aspect of life. It is accepting the truth of what can not be erased to ever be better even if it is just for ourselves. 

Beware of those who don’t acknowledge their own past failures as they are hiding the most dangerous future for us all.

Sincerely Me aka your friend Jeffery Page

2.6.2022 - “Maintaining Path”

Maintaining a path of righteousness is very hard in a world where sinning is the most popular thing. I would never say I am a religious person yet I believe in doing what is right opposed of doing what is wrong. We all understand the need to not repeat the past. Yet, I feel the past in mathematical equations does seem to be leading us astray into a city of Babylon. Even if that city is only in theory a virtual world. The seven deadly sins envy, gluttony, greed, lust, pride, sloth and wrath are so apparent just by looking into any social app. We are all also fed the natural mind’s drug of dopamine to help feed these desires to chase these sins by the traits of addiction.I am not preaching for any religion. Just sharing an observational view of today. I hope you all maintain the path of what you truly believe is right rather than being fed lies and addiction by those who are truly using you for gain. Sincerely Me aka your friend Jeffery Page

2.5.2022 - “Only the Strong”

We can all be fragile as we are human yet the saying still persist that only the strong will survive. It is true that this statement now days may seem a little archaic in this day and age when we are told to be happy and everything is supposed to be good for those who are good people. Yet in reality life can be trying and unfair. Most of us will not be given a medal for participation. The true reward for surviving is just sharing the life with those you love and trying to do the right things for the right reasons to die with a clear conscious. So watch out for that ego and direction of being in a Me, Myself and I driven world. Survival still requires the help and support from your loved ones.

In the end success is only rewarding when you have loved ones to share it with.

Sincerely me your friend aka Jeffery Page

2.4.2022 - “Wolves in Sheep’s Clothing”

I'm not saying I'm right. Yet I'm being honest about how I truly see this world.

Regardless of how smart you may be. There are so many predators trying to eat you alive. Adaptation for survival is always the best way to live. Know who your predators are or you might become sushi. Most people are unaware we all are being stalked this very moment by someone waiting for their opportunity to take advantage of us. I wish you all the best of luck in a world full of predators. Today there are more than ever.

Sincerely your friend me aka Jeffery Page

.Ps.Watch out for those who are narcissistic, capitalistic, and opportunistic. Some can come as friends, family or even a lover. It's not always the stranger who is a wolf in sheep's clothing. Even the sweetest thing can love bomb you to devour you like a black widow. Manipulative people are everywhere.

.Real talk for real life.

2.3.2022 - “Past Trauma will Cause you Drama”

So many people act as if their own past trauma can be be hidden away. However, if you don’t take care of it and ignore it. I promise you it will come back to haunt you. Ignoring it or putting it in a box acting as if it will disappear is highly unlikely. Just as that horrible school photo you took in 3rd grade or that horrible gift someone gave you one year. You must face these facts if you have not properly taken care of it you’ll realize that baggage is still there even if you pretend it is not. Like a bad dream those who are afraid to take care of their own personal issues will continue to make more nightmares for themselves and those around them.

Good luck with those closets full of skeletons and remember to bury them correctly or you will always be opening up an army of darkness. Because in all honesty “Past Trauma will cause you Drama”. If you don’t take care of your skeletons.

Sincerely Me aka Your Friend Jeffery Page.

2.2.2022 - “Believing You Can”

When you have given up on yourself by saying, “You can’t”. It’s proven you can’t. Unfortunately I believe we all can. We as a species has done very remarkable things. From Space travel to almost all of our modern advances. Most of the time it only requires an open mind and the will of persistence to achieve these remarkable goals and accomplishments. The first step however whether or not if it is on the land, sea or into space begins by saying, “You can”. Your mind is capable of many things once you know you can. Even the smallest things in life start with that process by saying, “I can”. So even if it’s an addiction, a condition or just a new mission of exploration. Never start off by sabotaging the true person you should be supporting that is yourself by saying, “You can’t”. 

In all honesty I think you can. It’s just up to you to believe it.

I wish you all a fresh start which starts today.

Sincerely Me your friend aka Jeffery Page

2.1.2021 - “Real Success”

Real success only comes with no excuses. Regardless of who you are you can do just about anything if you are realistic about it. I’ve known quite a few people in my life that are talented in many shapes or forms. The difference between the ones that seem to be successful and are not. Are the ones that become accountable for their desire and actions to persevere regardless of  what life has given them. We can all make excuses why we can not do something. Yet, if you do want success it truly starts with not making excuses. So many failed stories start with I can’t. As soon as you say you can you are already moving in the right direction. Take time to find your direction and just remember to do it and make no excuses.

Sincerely Me aka Your Friend Jeffery Page.

1.31.2022 - “Playing Games”

Games are the worst things we can play on an any human being. Whether or not if it’s on ourself or others. This game of life is a hard enough game as it is. So don’t get caught up in your own mind games or in anyone else’s for that matter. The only game you should play is this one called “LIFE”. Be careful of the other players as all are trying to win. Also be careful of that mind that is yours as in reality you should be on your own team even when no one else is. Since it is a game we are all trying to win I wish you the best of luck and a good game.

Sincerely Me aka Your Friend Jeffery

1.30.2022 - “Speaking out or up”

Using our voice to speak, yell, or even laugh is difficult in this world. Especially in a world that is afraid of laughter as it might offend. Which is funny when all we do is offend. Driven by this popular opinion we are all so uptight to try to fit into some label of our supposed open society. We are suppose to be ourself and told we are all different. Although if we are our true self we are deemed to be abnormal as we get chastised and ridiculed for being truly different. The undeniable truth is how many people are conformed by the ideas of popular belief in society yet truly are in the same category to yell at others who are not alike when most struggle not fitting in to begin  with. It’s this lack of understanding these major contradictions that perpetuates these cycles of racism, stereotypes and bullying. I have no problem with anyone speaking, yelling or even laughing. Even if it is at me. I get we are very sensitive creatures. It’s the lack of truly listening and understanding I fear. If you are basing your emotions on popular belief I’d wish you take a moment to use that mind to question yourself rather than getting stuck within mob mentality. May you all speak, yell or even laugh for the right reasons. I definitely do.

May you all find the real voice that you are looking for which is you.

Sincerely Me aka your friend Jeffery Page

1.29.2022 - “A Quick Buck”

Seeing a piece of art and knowing why an artist made it is simple. It's a compulsion to convey something from within. Trying to decipher what the artist truly was conveying may be a story for years to come. That's why it's hard for the artist to sometimes let it go. Once it's out there's a page of a diary for the world to see. Unfortunately sometimes that even conveys more than they would want. Once you learn to decipher the art you may actually see past the charlatans and appreciate the real artists who sacrifice all for a compulsion and need to share their life rather than to make a quick dollar. There is a reason the masters are master's. They sacrificed everything for their own art without compromise. Unfortunately for most it will make them an open book if you look at their history. It is that history you'll find the true person who shared everything to the world. As a real artist always will. That's why you should always support real "artist"s not scam artists. They'll be the ones doing it regardless of popularity to feed the ego.

Sincerely Me aka Your Friend Jeffery Page

1.28.2022 - “Holding yourself accountable”

The hardest part of anything is holding yourself to consistency and accountability. Waking up every morning when you don’t have to. Working out when you don’t need to. Basically keeping a schedule when those around you don’t. Hard work is the key to success. The only one who will  manage that is yourself. You either will do it or you won’t. That’s why it’s so easy to blame the world. It’s too hard when you have to blame yourself. Work ethic is something that is part of a drive. When you want success truly you are the one who has to be your own boss. Living your own dream is easy when that drive becomes second nature. Good luck on being the boss when you truly end up being your own boss. That is freedom and success.

Sincerely Me aka Your Friend Jeffery Page

1.27.2022 - “Cheating Yourself”

Cheating is just cheating on yourself. Doesn’t matter how you look at it.Whether it is a relationship or in the game of life. If you cheat you will always be doubting others and most importantly yourself. Success requires hard work to win. That includes the game of love. It is never a one way or one sided relationship if you really want to win. In the end cheating will make you feel like a loser in any circumstances. 

Don’t cheat yourself out on happiness and you will win in life and love. Sincerely Me aka your friend

Jeffery Page

1.26.2022 - “Obstacle of Life”

Breaking down walls and obstacles in life is simple by just being honest. Whether or not what your problem is. It's quite simple. Be honest with yourself about who you are. Most obstacles are created by trying to be someone else. Most walls are created by the lies we are protecting ourselves. If you are truly honest about who you are then you won't have to be stuck hiding behind walls or blaming others for the obstacle's created by trying to be someone else. None of us are perfect so stop hiding behind lies living like you are. Nature will make enough walls and obstacles for you to overcome don't make more by being a liar to that one person who truly deserves the honesty more than anyone. Yourself.

Sincerely Me aka Your Friend Jeffery

1.25.20220 - “Traumatic Imprints”

So many of us deal with past traumatic imprints that have left us damaged like a crashed car. Just like a vehicle, If you have had trauma/accidents in the past you can not just paint over it acting like the damage is not there. These imprints or dents will never get repaired without you doing the work to repair them no matter how much paint you use. It's going to take a lot of hard work to assess and repair those damages before you can. So take the time to repair those damages. If you don't you'll never be the beautiful vehicle you want to be regardless of all the paint.

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Good luck on your project car which is you. It requires a lot of work to be the high performance machine you were born to be. Sincerely Me aka Your Friend Jeffery Page

1.24.2022 - “No Shortcuts”

In today's world that is being programmed and seems so fast paced. We must always realize there are no short cuts in life and to have patience. Everything requires work, dedication and perseverance based on a process of steps. Even when there seems to be a shortcut it will cost you. If not now it will later. It's this process of learning that allows you to achieve the goals you truly want in life. Unfortunately patience, perseverance, and dedication is something that does not give us instant gratification or always come easily. Which with life's obstacles sometimes makes it even seem more trying at times. Shortcuts however will only give you brief success. Enjoy the real work in the process of being the best you. It is through this knowledge you'll be rewarded by achieving the success you deserve.

Sincerely your friend Me aka Jeffery

1.23.2022 - “Everyday is funday”

Everyday is Sunday funday if you look at the world as a child. The only way we lose that perspective is when we change our own mind thinking we have to fit a mold into today's society.
If you don't know who you are you'll never be what you want to be.
Good luck with being honest to yourself as that is the first step to success.
Sincerely Me aka your friend Jeffery

1.22.2022 - “Bury the Past”

Putting a nail into the coffin to bury the past is easy once you know that skeleton's history. Don't get caught being haunted and mourning in a cemetery that's not yours. Some skeletons need to be put to rest. It makes your life easier to live.

Sincerely Me aka Jeffery

1.21.2022 - “The Dream”

I dreamt a dream last night about laying around in a library while petting a tiger as my librarian friends Talked with people as they checked out books on various SUBJECTS. while I gave them drawings on their favorite subjects. I guess that is a great dream about my true passions in life. The pursuit of knowledge, friendships, Animals, art and sharing. Technically that sounds like a great dream. Then again it might be my reality. As I've lived it and still do. When you are truly loving your dreams you will see how your true personality will be everything you portray you are and every day you live will seem surreal like a dream.

Sincerely hope you all dream for the right reasons. I know I do. May you all keep pursuing living the dream you want in reality.

Sincerely Me aka your friend Jeffery Page

1.20.2022 - “Sink or Swim”

(Taken from blog Sink or Swim posted same day)

Most people don't know how to let go and hold onto baggage like a hoarder. Whether it's something that hurt them in adolescence, into early adulthood or even just yesterday. I guess it's that reason so many have a hard time with life. Instead of learning what weighs them down and letting go they allow it to drown them blaming others for not saving them. I guess that is why you always have to just sink or swim.

The only thing that truly sucks in these scenarios is watching some of those you have loved drown.

Not all people can be rescued from their anchors.

Good luck swimming.

Sincerely with love Me aka your friend Jeffery.

1.19.2022 - “You are the most”

Most people will never understand the true value of being yourself or the originality of going your own way. I can tell you all what being punk, an original or just different is. Then I'm sure you all know what that truly is. Which brings me to....Today’s Thought.

The most valuable thing you have to offer on this planet is yourself. If you don’t know the value of yourself you better believe someone else will and will try to exploit it some how. Always know what you are worth. Even if you haven’t been able to cash in on it yet. Never under value what you have to offer. In all sincerity we all have qualities that are extremely valuable. Hopefully you discover that treasure that is in you.
Sincerely Me aka your friend Jeffery Page

Ps. Always accept the differences in life. When the majority of thinking becomes a mob mentality you've lost what is most valuable of all. The right to think for yourself. Question the actions of who you truly follow. In the end you are guilty by association.

1.18.2022 - “Lying to yourself”

If you are trying to make everyone around you happy and you’re not happy yourself. Remember that you are just lying to yourself.

Remember to practice what you preach. You can not help anyone if you can not help yourself.

Sincerely Me aka Your Friend

Jeffery Page

1.17.2022 - “Nightmares and Dreams”

We all have Dreams that help us be better for ourself. Yet is it still a dream when the dreams we create don’t include the benefits for anyone else?
Be careful as all nightmares start as dreams. 

Sincerely Me

aka Your Friend

Jeffery Page

(This was the thought that inspired the blog post “We All Have Dreams”)

1.16.2022 - “Power of Loving”

Love is the hardest thing to lose. Whether or not it's a family member, a friend, a pet or a partner. There can be many feelings that are experienced regardless of how this loss presents itself. Sometimes it's death, sometimes it's just going separate ways, sometimes there is no answer and we are left asking ourselves why it's gone. The only reason for these feelings is because we look at love as a permanent thing. Even though it will always be temporary in life. It's only permanent in our minds. Don't be afraid to love but remember to always be present. In the end the memories will be all we have. Even if the suffering of void seems eternal nothing is. As even these feelings will soon disappear as in reality we all do. .I hope you all take the time to realize the power of loving others as it will always be the hardest part of living other than surviving. Sincerely with love Me aka Jeffery Page

1.15.2022 - “Denial of habits”

Being addicted to an idea, a drug or even an activity can always seem to be rational in our own mind. However, without proper perspective, moderation and self reflection any addiction can be a set up for self destruction as it will become a habit. Not all addictions are negative yet through habitual repetition we fail to realize how it affects us and others as the habit becomes normal. It is only the denial of these addictions we all have to be aware of in order to not hurt anyone around us including ourselves. We all have addictions the only question is are you aware of what yours are?

I hope you all make healthy choices on deciding what your addictions are.

Sincerely Me aka your friend Jeffery Page

1.14.2022 - “Making Peace”

We all fight wars. Some battle within their own mind. Some struggle sacrificing their own heart. Some wage war with others. It is human nature to fight just to rationalize surviving this war we feel is waged against us. In the end we all are just wishing to make peace even if it is only with ourself.

Good luck with the battles you choose to take on.

Sincerely Me aka your friend Jeffery Page

1.13.2022 - “Illusion of feeling alone”

Whether or not we feel alone life is always around us. It is an illusion of feeling alone and a feeling that is never true. Even in the middle of nowhere there are creatures and life. Just because you can not see it does not mean it's not there. It is this fact by opening up your eyes and your mind you can truly appreciate this gift of life. As we all matter because we are matter. To me that's the only fact that matters. We are all connected by this idea of life occupying space.

.Enjoy this life you've been gifted. It's what matters.

Sincerely Me aka Jeffery Page

1.12.2022 - “Watch out for Idols”

The idealization of your true self can sabotage your need for growth. Don't look into yourself as being superior or anyone else breathing as a savior. Recent history alone teaches us the problems with that concept. Dictators, cult leaders, serial killers, even the Hollywood elite. Even a friend or family leader can wear that mask. Stay true to yourself and learn to respect one another as we are God's in our own mind yet following one that hurts yourself and others in the end will destroy the true happiness you seek imprisoning if anything your mind.

Sincerely Me aka Jeffery Page

1.11.2022 - “Don’t worry about others opinions”

Never worry about what people think. Especially those who are not your friends. Their perspective is usually based on their own inadequate knowledge of really knowing you. If they did you'd value that opinion because they would be a "Friend".

Sincerely Me aka Jeffery Page

1.10.2022 - “Someone Else’s Projection”

The idea that you will be like anyone else is an anxiety that is self inflicted. Wether or not you feel afraid that you will fall into someone else's shoes from failure or the stress of trying to be like someone else will always be absurd. It's ok to have both of those feelings yet in the end you are you. So don't handicap yourself by thinking this way. You are not them. They are not you.

Good luck finding yourself if you think you are lost in this dilemma.

Sincerely Me aka your friend Jeffery Page

1.9.2022 - “Spending Time”

When I worked at the funeral home in my late teens and early twenties I spent a lot of time talking with people who were in care facilities. One of the most important lessons I was told was you should always make your time your time. It's the most valuable thing in this world. So be careful not to waste it with those who don't value your time. In the end that is all we will ever want... Just more time. Have a great day spending your time the way you want.

Sincerely Me aka your friend Jeffery Page

1.8.2022 - “Recognizing Real”

To a few friends that struggle with today's high school popularity contest.

In a world that seems to be so into instant gratification and fame just remember that most of these ideas are false realities. As many things we've grown to love in life are built upon those who were told they are crazy or that their ideas were stupid. Yet they forged forward to make their dream reality. Which for some took a lifetime to achieve. Some of the greatness we stride for can not be measured by the perspectives of people who don't understand vision. Don't get caught up looking at others who are popular as they are usually not true innovators in life. Most likely their only flavor they truly have to offer is in their Flava-Aid. So look past those wolves in sheep's clothing. In the end real will always recognize real. The truth always finds a way. Good luck to you all seeing the pathway you want to truly walk without trying to take shortcuts or pulled away. Keep on truckin'... Sincerely Me aka your friend Jeffery Page

1.7.2022 - “Lead by example”

Those who spend more time focused on changing others are usually just avoiding to look at themselves and afraid of real change. Lead by example for real change. Lead by example for real change. You’ll never be able to force others and in the end changing for the better will always benefit you in the end.

Think about it. We all hate being told what to do and all emulate those we aspire to be. It’s all your decision. Good luck as you adapt in this rapidly changing world.

Sincerely Me

aka

Your friend Jeffery Page

1.6.2022 - “False Idealization”

Many people act as if they are king or queen in this jungle. Yet no one wants to be ruled yet somehow we still follow an archaic way of monarchy. Don’t be fooled into this false idealization. Are we all not kings or queens in our own personal jungle? I’m not lying when I say be careful believing in those you follow. Did we not believe in democracy for a reason?

Good luck to you all ruling our own kingdoms.

Sincerely Me

aka your friend

Jeffery Page

1.5.2022 - “Perfect Lying”

Don’t compare yourself or believe in those who act as if constantly. They are only lying to you to make themselves feel better. Even the best places to live have storms and cons about them. Sincerely Me aka Jeffery Page

1.4.2022 - “DNA proves we are different”

In today’s world I know it’s even harder to fit in. We humans are flawed with free thinking. Which includes disbelieving what believing what people say out of ignorance. I’ve listened to people who say “Us vs. them” even when mathematically we all have differences. DNA proves that. So don’t be afraid to be yourself. In the end that is what truly made you whole labeling process and feeling acceptance is just led by the idea we are supposed to belong. When in fact if you are alive you already belong to a very small group that was given life in the first place. So remember to love yourself and don’t be afraid to be different, alone or just you. We are all aliens acting as if we are not.

Good luck to you all trying to love who you truly are. A very flawed and scared species known as being human.

Sincerely Me aka your friend Jeffery Page

1.3.2022 - “Not Perfect”

Regardless of who you are, where you are from, or what you have experienced. The most common mistake is not realizing we all have our flaws and difficulties navigating through this so called life. We are not given a handbook and a lot of what we are taught is wrong. That is why we should remember none of us are perfect or all knowing. So having expectations fro someone else to be what we are not is highly unfair projection. So be kind to those around you. We all suffer from handicaps and of course the curse and blessing of being human.

Sincerely Me aka Your Friend Jeffery Page

1.2.2022- “Science of Silence”

I will never understand the science of silence with those who really need help. Especially when they really do not communicate. Wether or not it’s not lost in translation or afraid of being honest. The failures of transmission can only be blamed on the lack of noise. Creating walls will only barricade you from truly being free. These walls will imprison you from the world, your friends and yourself. Muffling the voice you truly want heard is a recipe for disaster.

I hope those who need help find the voice and ears they truly need. Tonight’s thoughts about depression, melancholy, loneliness and/or feelings of suicide .

Sincerely Me

aka your friend Jeffery Page

1.1.2022 - “Drifting Along”

We are all just drifting into a new year as an alien in a universe unknown. Even the most far reaches of space some traveling will make us feel as if we are all on our own.

May you all reach your destinations this year.

I wish you all a prosperous and healthy New Year.

Sincerely with love, Me aka

your friend Jeffery Page

The one reason I love to use black ink is the magnificent contrast it can create on paper. It somewhat seems to always convey what I have always felt life is. A balance of light and dark or in terms that have carried on since the beginning of written word Good vs Evil. From the beginning of what I would say my formative years of art training. My true introduction to art was cartoons and flipping through my Grandfather Gary's library that contained illustrations, engravings and other black and white illustrations from Albrecht Dürer, Francisco Goya and DaVinci. Even as I dove into documentaries last night on psychology, occult and ancient civilizations I could not help but think of this short time span that really led me down the path I have chosen. This illustration/cartoon not part of the ones I created last night was created in 2020 as somewhat of a self portrait and a documentation of where I was at the time when my cat of 19 years Dyna had met the end of her life on February 20th of that year. I felt with the abundance of cultural, media and psychology problems of the worlds manifested into what at times in past and present history would be described as the Devil's work which surrounded me. Although just as when I was young I was always able to see the truth behind these evils by creating a positive outlook and tuned out the noises by looking into myself and history as therapy and the true teaching tool to get ahead. Whether or not books, cartoons or history saves me I do not know. I do know however out of the simple spilling of black ink onto paper I can bring her back at any time while occupying my mind and hands so they will not be doing the devil's work so to speak. I will never claim a religious organization nor will I deny the belief in a higher power of sorts. I will say though overall I believe in the power of black ink and the contrast of it to translate messages in many ways to give us a perspective on life. It's magical powers evoke and document the same feelings and thoughts we humans have tried convey since the beginning of symbolism and written time. That is Dyna. That is my savior ink. That is Me. The devil represents the world around me.

Sincerely Me aka Jeffery Page (written Jan. 12, 2022)