Walking to the Gallows with the weight of the world and no heart.
Currently I am watching people in general losing their minds. I can’t say I didn’t see it coming however I will say I didn’t expect it to be so devastating to my own world.
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This is a poem I wrote earlier today as it has been just a month since my life has changed.
Walking to the Gallows with the weight of the world and no heart.
No day like today has been ever more depressed. I cried and let out my feelings of emptiness inside my hollow chest. There is no point of this action other than an escape of hot steam. A release of nightmares even if it was not a dream. With all fault I condemn myself I’ll walk myself to the gallows. I feel helpless as I’m haunted by the drowning in a sea of these dark shadows. It could never be great to ever look forward to the end. I feel I have been sentenced to death with short breath I’d say,”by my lover, my muse, my best friend.” Everything I was will never be the same again in the end. I do not wish upon this sentence passed so I’ll sacrifice what’s left as I have no heart to lend. To think what will happen is just a stretch to hear the roar of the crowd. I was too scared with anxiety at this point no feelings matter as feeling are not allowed. Must be a man and nothing will matter as if it ever did. I had only one life which is why I have died once I no longer had a heart to give.
This drawing was based off a cover of a Pulp Fiction Book and also the gravity of feelings that I have felt, witnessed and believe the world plays on all of us. Especially in times like Cultural Clashes, War, Love, Pandemics, and Political Party Problems 2020 remains the most trying time to date. I have seen how empathetic this world can be. I never truly allowed other people’s feelings to really effect mine. Yet, for the last decade I believe I have experienced it. It’s weird that really when you think about feelings. You do realize anyone you tell your feelings to will always really care about their own feelings more. However, unfortunately if they’re at least compassion in this act you will see how those feelings are addressed. If not the idea of the less important feelings won’t matter and it really becomes a spiraling feeling to make other person who shares their feelings as if they do not matter. So as everyone talks about me. Preaching about theirs opinions and thoughts. It still amazes me how much we tend to worry about things that are out of our control instead of what really will help make us truly happy. In some ways we all hang our selves as we are all emotions.
Overall, though I feel positive for the world I create. I enjoy my outlook of where I am at. I realize how much has and will be always out of our control and the hardest part in life is accepting that. It also seems so many of us have addictions even if they are not substances in any shape or form. From social media, to our own beliefs we all are so lucky to ever survive even from conception. So everyday I can honestly say even if I feel. I also will live. Feeling is a part of living. So living with feelings is just life. Not all feelings are in reality bad, good or even real. They are in general just personal feelings. Which in reality are just like opinions. A messed up perspective from one individual. Man life is a difficult thing to navigate. Even if it was before. In today’s world I believe it is even harder. Good thing is we always have right now to make it better for ourself. Have a great day and enjoy the moment right now. Even if it’s just reflecting, enjoying a view or just the simple act of breathing. We can all use it some times. Sincerely Jeffery